stress

damnit i think i'm in over my head. this whole college thing is awesome but if i don't pass my chinese class then i'm fucked, because as far as i can tell i won't be able to complete my program in 2 years, so i won't graduate with all my classmates. i know all the problems i'm having are completely my fault but damnit, sometimes it's just too fuckin much.

Damn................

My 18th birthday is in 15 days and last Friday I went to the eye doctor for the first time ever, actually no, I've been to an eye doctor before, but he was my retinal specialist who operated on my for my detatched retina back in grade 8, man that was a long time ago. Anyways, I go to the eye doctor last weekend and I found out that I was "red/green deficient," which means I'm colourblind. LESS THAN A MONTH FROM MY 18th BIRTHDAY AND I JUST FOUND OUT THAT I'M COLOURBLIND!!!!!!!! Honestly, what the fuck is with that????? You would think that I would have noticed by now wouldn't you?

adios

-Errol