A Life In Perspective

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, more so than usual

I've been thinking on many subjects, school, my family, but mostly the life I've chosen to lead and where it's taken me

While I completely admit that as a person I'm a total fuckup and the world would be a better place without me, I can't help but wonder what would've happened if I never existed. I've helped more than my fair share of people in my relatively short time here, and if I wasn't there, then what about them, would their problems have been solved? What about the even more problems that I caused? What then?

I've been over thinking everything to the point that I've honestly given up and even contemplated religion. Yes, I am not shitting you, now if you think about that, now THAT would be a mind fuck.

However, I am still a heathen, so those of who have come to know and love my antics need not worry. Nothing cages the lone wolf

There's really nothing left for me to say....oh ya

"I'm better than you and your best years are behind you"

adios

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

*note to Fred Gallagher (aka Piro), I am in no way attempting to usurp your mantle as Piro the Tortured Artist, I simply feel that in certain contexts it applies to aspects of my life as well, and on a further note MegaTokyo Kicks Ass

Roomie

Today, or yesterday I should say since it is 2:30 am right now, my new roommate moved in, so I no longer have to deal with my brother constantly railing his fiance in the next room and since I've known Jarod for a little while now, I think I can safely say that I won't have to worry about that. It should be cool, the apartment now has all 3 next gen systems, 2 tvs, 2 microwaves, 3 coffee makers (they're all his) and other assorted oddities. But the great thing is, I got my residence package from G-Mac and they're offering me a 2 bedroom for less than the original advertised price of a 4 bedroom suite.........score. Well it's early so I should get some sleep

adios

-Errol

Piro

I've decided that tomorrow I am not going to school, after all I only have 1 class and I think I need a break from all of life's distractions, and I've had a rough week

I mean honestly, did you read my last blog? that was some fuckin tortured artistry right there, That cements my claim to the moniker Piro, even though it's stolen from MegaTokyo, and I fully admit that, I still have a valid claim to the name

adios

-Errol

Life, that has no meaning is nothing but the search for the meaning of that which has no meaning
The never-ending search for the unattainable
An effort in futility that always ends in hate, loss, and death

Why bother? Why not just give up, give in and lie down
Resign yourself to your fate and let the tides of time take you where they will

I am arrogant, egotistical, narcissistic, an overall prick
Yet someone says they care for me

I talk more than I listen, hate more than I love, and care only for myself
Though that is sketchy at best

There is no point to any of this
There never has
There never will

So consider this
My declaration of war
Against myself and all the world

I will never act
Never speak out
But I will always hate

All that is
All that has been
All that will be

-Errol

Death is Certain, its Hour Uncertain

I am a rubix cube, the size of the planet, one that you cannot see or even reach all of it, therefore it is impossible to solve

nothing ever works out the way you want it to.........

well it looks like i'm going to have to put off changing the template for a while

you see it is now official that i lose my apartment at the end of the month, i start the month leading up to finals by moving upstairs with my brother and his fiance

this really fucking sucks

however my stay with them will most definately not be permanent as i have other plan in motion well.......move...........

i might be moving into the new macewan dorm this next fall which would be really cool

might be moving in with matt over the summer while i work and/or take some summer classes

might decide to fuck it all, get all my education money from my parents then get the fuck out of the country and blow everything in a matter of weeks

hell, i could just shoot myself in the head, but that doesn't really solve anything now does it?


adios

-Errol