I know it's been over 2 months since my last post

merry christmas

fuck you

Dichotomy

this is me

this is me on rage

Joyful Rebellion

Today was fun, started drinking glenfiddich around 9 when I got back from work, then drank in various rooms on my floor, then we all went to the Globe, a truly spectacular bar. I honestly had fun, I went against routine and went out. Now to go slightly off topic, who is this fucker on much music that everyone says I look like? honestly? what the flying fuck. But moving on, dancing is fucking fun. There's no 2 ways about it, fucking awesome. and things were going great until Kristin lost her watch, so that kind of killed the evening, so I have to give them a call tomorrow and leave a message, then go down tuesday night when they're open and pick it up, depending on of course if whomever finds the expensive little bastard didn't steal it. So that pretty much sums up my evening, and I must appologize if some of my sentences are fucked, i'm still feeling the effects of the good time.

adios

-Piro

If it stayed I'd never leave it
If that turned around
I'd grieve the special dirty things that we used to talk about
I mean that loving you is strange
And adored by me throughout oh no it's you again
Someday soon you'll find that someone
Waiting for the chance to beat you
Drooling on the set to feel you
Blessing you with every kiss
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness 'cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness 'cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
Such the patient one who needs me
The spoiled one who wins
So shocking where's your sense
Don't you know I hate you,
Unsatisfied you little girl.
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness 'cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness 'cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
Rolling dice and seeming queer
Bastard love, a sick affair
Let's see what new disease you'll fetch
I mean that fucking you is strange
And adored by me throughout
Oh no it's you again
Blessing you with every kiss
So precious you know this hate of mine exploded
I'm so deranged you know
I will never be the same
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness 'cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness 'cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill

Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name in your recollection
Down among a million, say:
Difficult enough to feel a little bit
Disappointed, passed over.
When I've looked right through,
To see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me
Well I threw you the obvious,
Just to see if there's more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy.
Here I am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded
But I see,
See through it all,
See through,
And see you.
So I threw you the obvious
Do you see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy
Well, oh well..
Apparently nothing.
Apparently nothing at all.
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me at all

Cloud my eyes and tell me what to see
I'm falling
Every way I turn the same disease
But I like it
Brace myself and hit the wall with ease
Colliding
I'm not minding the pain
I've been down here before
All my bones and joints are sore
Find my way out of the wreck again
I've been down here before
Lost myself and so much more
Find my way out of the game again
Open up my head and take it in
Just like always
Think about the bar and take a swing
Loaded trapeze
What you need the most from me is yours
I'll continue to deceive you my friend
You lost what made you you
Or maybe I never knew
I can't stay here anymore
Give it all or you're on your own
I will leave you
I will leave you
I will leave you
I will leave you

Well, the first week of school and life in the residence is over. I realize that my last post was far from inspired so I figure I'll make it up to you all with the next couple posts.

Today I moved into the dorm, it's a nice place.......i guess.

PHOTO!!!!!!!!!

Well, after nearly 8 months I finally figured out what was wrong with my webcam software, and so now I can capture video and pictures without having to resort to msn messenger and using a screen capture utility which made the image such horrible quality that I simply discarded them. Moving on now here's a few photos for your viewing pleasure

Adios

Piro

heeeeeeerrrrrrreeeeeeee's JOHNNY!!!!!!!!

hola everyone, I'm back after a little break, so this is more of an information session than anything else.

things are going pretty smoothly in my life right now, I just finished moving in with my brother and sister in law. Luckily this is only temporary as I move into the dorm Sept. 3. Unfortunately I recieved a letter from MacEwan saying that they ran out of 2 bedroom suites so now I'm getting a 4 bedroom....which is a little unnerving because living with 1 roommate was difficult enough, now 3?!?! whatever, I'll roll with the punches like i always do.

Animethon is this weekend so I made sure I had some scratch saved up for the vendors' room. $245 should do it right? haha, I think i might go a bit overboard but whatever.

Also, on a musical note The Bravery is a spectacular cd. buy it........buy it now

adios

-Piro

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Today was interesting, beheld my first lunch rush today at work, it actually wasn't that bad but apparently it was nothing compared to most days. I only worked 11-2 so I was out and free to actually do something today. So in order to celebrate I went to Mother's Music to peruse the merchandise and then of to Mikado for a kick-ass lunch and it was kick-ass indeed, especially the novelty of having the token white guy as my server. He's the only male server at Mikado and he's the only non-asian on staff, at first I was a bit surprised but he knows his shit so it's all good.

nothing that I can really bitch about, so I guess I'm done

adios fuckers

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

Job.....and no, not the biblical one

Hail and well met fuckwads.

Errol has a Job, and as for the title, I was making the Mission Impossible reference where they use the book of Job (pronounced with a long o) as a tool to cover their shady dealings.

but any way back to the employment shit. I got a job, As of yesterday I now work at Quizno's on 109th street, which is actually really close, clareview to carona, walk 2 blocks. But what's even better is that in the fall when I'm living in the new dorm it'll only be a 2 block walk, no LRT involved. So ya if you're ever downtown, drop by and order a sandwich. I assure you that I'll wrap it with all the love, care and attention that you can expect from a Tortured Artist like Piro (aka me)

well adios boys and girls

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

Trent Reznor is the shit

I realize that the new NIN album has been out for a while but I figured that since I haven't written anything in a while, something is better than nothing.

.......ya, With Teeth is some heavy shit, most people would think that after an 8 year hiatus Reznor would lost his touch a bit, but no, he proves all the nay-sayers wrong once again. In my mind the tracks to grab if you're not a NIN fan or are broke at the moment are "all the love in the world," "the hand that feeds," "love is not enough," "every day is exactly the same," "only," getting smaller," "beside you in time," and "right where it belongs." My all around favorite is right where it belongs, which I feel is the perfect ending to the cd, all mellow and depressing and what not.

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

I haven't written in almost a month, because there isn't anything worth writing about. And this useless blurb isn't even worth a signature

A Good Old Fashioned Rant

Once again the ignorance and stupidity of some people never ceases to amaze me

People actually think I'm arrogant, that I am conceited, over-bearing, and full of pride. What the hell, what do I have to be proud about, I have no real skills that I can brag about and I'm rather quite meek. Now I can understand where they are coming from, I know I'm not the easiest person in the world to deal with, and well I don't really care who anyone is I'll call a spade a spade whenever, wherever. But you see this doesn't come from an over-developed ego or some projection of self-importance, no, this comes from an utter contempt for society in general.

Honestly, if you take a step back and look at the world that we have shaped to fit our needs, we are nothing but a blight on this planet, no other species of animal life on the planet acts as we do. All other forms enter an equilibrium with their surrounding environment. We don't do that, we expand, transform, and destroy the land. For what? And why? What gives us this "right" that we perceive that we have to alter something that we as well as billions of theirs depend on.

I think I know what it is, we have this unfounded superiority complex, that to be honest we shouldn't have, Look at us compared to other mammals. We have no natural defensive weapons, the only thing that puts us apart from others is opposable thumbs and our "higher thought processes." But are they really all that higher? When the chips are down you act on instinct and impulse, just like a wolf or a tiger would. We try and rationalize our decisions but because of the unknown, which amounts to almost everything, we follow our gut, or our dick depending on the situation.

Now I'm not saying that we are on the same level as wolves or tigers, survival of the fittest is nature's law. But it infuriates me that we have actually removed ourselves from the food chain, we have no predators, this resulting in overpopulation, pollution, and the gamut of other shitty things that are happening to the world.

What we need is another fucking war. I'm not talking about these bullshit wars that happen every 10 years or something like that, I'm talking what the Cold War should have culminated into, World War III, except maybe minus the nuclear weapons. We need a good old fashioned meat grinder to thin out the shallow end of the gene pool, and by the shallow end I am referring to the "south" and religious fundamentalists. Oh what the hell, we'll throw in some conservative elitists in too, the more the merrier.

Well, I think I've spread enough joy for one day, now it's time to go play some violent video games

adios

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

My Fair Lady

once again everyone, I can safely say that Lady Luck is my bitch

no details will be given, just accept it and move on

adios

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

Ignorance

Hola everyone

breaking news, In a sudden and uncalled for explosion of written rage, I have been called a "deluded, waste of time, psychotic assface" by one or two parties who have been recently been mentioned here in my little piece of reality. Doesn't take long figure out who they are does it?

now first of all, deluded......to be deluded you have to have a deceived mind or sense of judgment. I seem to be judging people fine don't I? As far as I can tell my skill at passing judgment on people hasn't suffered lately, but the again the time leading up to exams is the low season because everyone is too preoccupied with frivolous things.

Secondly, waste of time? Where did this shit come from? And according to the dictionary, it's the devotion of time to a useless activity. Last time I checked I was human, not some activity or game that could be played, who's deluded now?

Now on to the psychotic part, well I did some checking, and they don't even use that term anymore. It's part of what we call the obsolete vernacular, in this day and age we refer to those who suffer from "a personality disorder marked by antisocial behavior" as a sociopath.

Now some may call me antisocial, but really it all boils down to logistics. I live in the middle of buttfuck nowhere, not so much as I used to but still, buttfuck nowhere. Combine that with a slight case of videogame induced laziness and there you have it.

And that last bit, assface, now that takes the cake. A perfect ending to a perfect insult, the finishing blow, the proverbial coup de grace. Oh yes my friends, my adversaries have some cunning word smiths among their ranks. I say word smith because the insult wasn't verbal, otherwise I would have said linguist, semantics are the key.

The saying "ignorance is bliss," well that's just bullshit


adios

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

Wrath

Well now, as of my last entry some fuckwads decided to flame my comments section and that shit just isn't cool

so in retaliataion of such a bullshit tactic the ips are now blocked.......but it gets better

here are the ips

24.59.55.94
198.161.33.146

If anyone decides to use this information for semi or blatantly illegal purposes, not my problem

adios

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

Fuck Everyone

Well everyone, I am now officially contemplating turning gay.

To fully, or even partially understand the cause of all of today's crap you need a little back story (insert crazy time warp cheesy flashback transition)

Oh about a month ago, maybe less I broke up with Sarah, my then girlfriend, it lasted about a month and was my first actual relationship, so naturally it was doomed to die a slow and painful death. It did die a slow painful death, the first 2 weeks were great, we had lots of fun did stuff together, the whole honeymoon syndrome shit. Second 2 weeks, not so good.........as it being my first actual relationship, and me being scared shitless by the thought of actually caring for someone, I naturally drifted away somewhat (it's instinct, as fucked as that sounds).

Now about half way into my foray at......umm.....non solitude......Sarah and I tried hooking up her best friend Stace with my boy Bowes, I thought what the hell it's not like he has a girlfriend. Ya.....not a great idea while it wasn't a total failure, it wasn't a success.........which ya, I guess it would make it a failure.

So after that I got to know Stace a little better, very little, which was something I would've liked to remedy but I digress.

So after I broke up with Sarah things between us were a little..........strained, she said she wanted to be friends, but no, she doesn't want to, it's one of those "I don't want part of you, I want all of you" things, totally ridiculous. But carrying on, today I saw Stace in the caf, sat down started talking and stuff, before she heads off to class, she asks me "so do you want to be my friend or something?".......................holy shit people I think we found ourselves a winner here, for those who don't know me, if I didn't want to be her friend I wouldn't have sit down and started talking to her......but that's not the best part, She then goes into this long repetitive speech about how she can't be my friend because she's Sarah's best friend and Sarah doesn't want to be my friend so she can't and Sarah's friendship is more important than mine but not before saying "you're a nice guy and all but no".

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!!!!!! Now don't get me wrong, I understand where she's coming from but still, me being on this side of the situation I automatically have to say what the fuck?

And it keeps on getting better, you see, Stace was a part of the reason why I broke up with Sarah, because she is SOOOOOO much hotter than Sarah, ridiculously so. But as usual my great grand scheme backfires because someone has to go and be a fucking child. I mean honestly, it didn't work out, like all your previous relationships, the faster you accept it and move on the happier everyone is. Now the thing that really makes me laugh, really gets me going is the fact that I told her that I'm an asshole, in those exact words, and SHE DIDN'T BELIEVE ME!!!!!! Who fucking lies about that shit???????? That's like lying and saying you were a convicted pedophile while trying to pick up a milf, goddamn some people are stupid, some people are really fucking dumb.........no wait I retract that statement, everyone is really fucking dumb

always and forever

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

A Life In Perspective

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, more so than usual

I've been thinking on many subjects, school, my family, but mostly the life I've chosen to lead and where it's taken me

While I completely admit that as a person I'm a total fuckup and the world would be a better place without me, I can't help but wonder what would've happened if I never existed. I've helped more than my fair share of people in my relatively short time here, and if I wasn't there, then what about them, would their problems have been solved? What about the even more problems that I caused? What then?

I've been over thinking everything to the point that I've honestly given up and even contemplated religion. Yes, I am not shitting you, now if you think about that, now THAT would be a mind fuck.

However, I am still a heathen, so those of who have come to know and love my antics need not worry. Nothing cages the lone wolf

There's really nothing left for me to say....oh ya

"I'm better than you and your best years are behind you"

adios

-Errol aka Piro aka "Tortured Artist"

*note to Fred Gallagher (aka Piro), I am in no way attempting to usurp your mantle as Piro the Tortured Artist, I simply feel that in certain contexts it applies to aspects of my life as well, and on a further note MegaTokyo Kicks Ass

Roomie

Today, or yesterday I should say since it is 2:30 am right now, my new roommate moved in, so I no longer have to deal with my brother constantly railing his fiance in the next room and since I've known Jarod for a little while now, I think I can safely say that I won't have to worry about that. It should be cool, the apartment now has all 3 next gen systems, 2 tvs, 2 microwaves, 3 coffee makers (they're all his) and other assorted oddities. But the great thing is, I got my residence package from G-Mac and they're offering me a 2 bedroom for less than the original advertised price of a 4 bedroom suite.........score. Well it's early so I should get some sleep

adios

-Errol

Piro

I've decided that tomorrow I am not going to school, after all I only have 1 class and I think I need a break from all of life's distractions, and I've had a rough week

I mean honestly, did you read my last blog? that was some fuckin tortured artistry right there, That cements my claim to the moniker Piro, even though it's stolen from MegaTokyo, and I fully admit that, I still have a valid claim to the name

adios

-Errol

Life, that has no meaning is nothing but the search for the meaning of that which has no meaning
The never-ending search for the unattainable
An effort in futility that always ends in hate, loss, and death

Why bother? Why not just give up, give in and lie down
Resign yourself to your fate and let the tides of time take you where they will

I am arrogant, egotistical, narcissistic, an overall prick
Yet someone says they care for me

I talk more than I listen, hate more than I love, and care only for myself
Though that is sketchy at best

There is no point to any of this
There never has
There never will

So consider this
My declaration of war
Against myself and all the world

I will never act
Never speak out
But I will always hate

All that is
All that has been
All that will be

-Errol

Death is Certain, its Hour Uncertain

I am a rubix cube, the size of the planet, one that you cannot see or even reach all of it, therefore it is impossible to solve

nothing ever works out the way you want it to.........

well it looks like i'm going to have to put off changing the template for a while

you see it is now official that i lose my apartment at the end of the month, i start the month leading up to finals by moving upstairs with my brother and his fiance

this really fucking sucks

however my stay with them will most definately not be permanent as i have other plan in motion well.......move...........

i might be moving into the new macewan dorm this next fall which would be really cool

might be moving in with matt over the summer while i work and/or take some summer classes

might decide to fuck it all, get all my education money from my parents then get the fuck out of the country and blow everything in a matter of weeks

hell, i could just shoot myself in the head, but that doesn't really solve anything now does it?


adios

-Errol

The Winds of Change

very soon I will be changing the template for this soapbox, all for the better, it will kick ass, and chew bubble gum.........but ya i just need to work out some of the kinks in the code

adios

-Errol

The Lowest Common Denominator

Ho-ly Shit boys and girls, people fucking suck.

I was heading to the bank today to deposit a cheque and when I was crossing the street I had to move around a big puddle, and lo and behold, as soon as I crossed it.........BANG! some dumb shit in some domestic POS screams by and splashes the hell out of me, my entire left side was drenched. But that's not all, I was wearing a white shirt, one that was given to me as a gift, it was a really nice long-sleeved cotton shirt, and it was white, i liked that shirt. But some asshole had to go out and be an asshole and spray me with the shittiest water this side of Calcutta. I tell you, Humanity is at an all time low right now

adios

-Errol

The Man From Constantinople

tonight kicked ass, went out, had dinner with Sarah, saw Constantine, it was nice

Constantine was spectacular, definately has a giant "cool" factor, in my view it's dvd worthy

see it



adios

-Errol

Happy Day

Happy Valentine's Day everyone, i hope you find love in your life and the happines that life has constantly denied me.

Things are changing pretty rapidly in my life right now, My brother just got engaged, he's getting married the August long weekend. I might be moving back in with my parents, or I might be getting a new roommate. I went toboganning on connor's hill on saturday, had a blast, almost froze my fucking toes off though..........can't really think of anything else.....ohyeah, watch Bleach, one of the greatest animes I've seen in a long time. You can get it here

adios

Errol

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

Time

Perhaps it's time for me to update the site a bit, maybe get some 3rd party comments thing going like Matt and my site, maybe change the layout a bit, hell, maybe even do some coding to make it look cool. Not likely but you have to have dreams.

So here it is, if you think I should update the site and make it look better then vote, post a comment, I'll thank you for it later

adios

-Errol

Damn Cliches.................

Ever heard the phrase "when it rains it pours?" well the damn thing is right, especially when it comes to women. I go months with nothing........a varitable fucking desert and then BANG!!!!!!! flash flood, I have more possibilities than a goddamn poker game. I shouldn't complain, because I'm used to it, but DANMIT!!!!!!!! IT'S FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh ya, I guess I kinda already broke that promise I made to you all.........but you know what.....who cares? What are you going to do about it?

adios

-Errol

The Promise

Hi everyone, Errol here.

I know I haven't been blogging that much lately, and I apologize for it, but these days I haven't been all that mad at anything, things have been pretty good so I don't really have any material.

However, I will now make a conscious effort to blog at least twice a week, minimum. I owe that to my loyal readers..................if I have loyal readers. But on to other topics...................ummmmm ya I'm out..................adios

-Errol

Is this it?

here I am sitting in my computing for business lab and the the teacher is going on, and on, explaining to us the laborious task of creating shortcuts to our personal folders where we hand in all of our assignments and i'm realizing, is this it, is this what my tuition is paying for? I know there are a lot of computer illiterate people out there but i mean come on......... but i have to get back, he's getting back to explaining the difficulty in finding the proper file path


adios

-Errol